First Non-Mandatory Post, Feels Good!

Ahhh it feels good knowing I can do this just because I want to. One of the reasons I’m writing this is to distract myself from the task at hand, studying! Really who likes studying? Maybe I would if it was of my own free will right? That won’t happen until I’m out of school though. Oh yea, and I really really miss Courtney! We are getting closer to being together, and it feels like forever until next Saturday when she comes home to me without having to leave again, so close!

I have just one more final exam on Monday, the last possible exam day, it’s accounting, and it’s at 7pm. Definitely my first pick of exam times. Not. I’ve made it through all the others without too much difficulty, although I wouldn’t say the same in the few panicked hours before each of the exams. I really felt good about the first one though, we were allowed a cheat sheet.

The whole cheat sheet idea was great for relieving anxiety before a test, it actually stopped me from having too many nervous trips to the bathroom for number-two false alarms. Probably too much information, but I’m sure I’m not the only one that gets super nervous and thinks that churning feeling in your stomach is something else. I felt very confident right up until the moment I got out of my truck at the university and reached into my pocket to feel for that stress reducing piece of paper. It must have fallen out! 

This inspired me, if I ever became a teacher, to try something to help students with stress during exams and tests. Let them know beforehand that they can make a cheat sheet, so they don’t feel like they need to hide under a rock and die a little inside until they get that test in front of them, and then just collect it before it starts! It’s pretty consistent that you really don’t need to remember much from what you put on the sheet, just the act of doing so with very careful, and very small writing, seems to sink most of it into your brain. Now this trick would only work once, and your students would never trust you again, but it might be a fun experiment! 

I actually felt really good about that particular test, so maybe there’s something to it! Maybe I should just leave the teaching skills to my future wife, who you know, went to school to learn how to do it right!

Courtney is basically done with all her school now, she is just counting the seconds until this next week is over. She has already walked for graduation, had all her final observations, and just needs to come home to me now! We will be busy right out of the gate basement suite and apartment hunting, we don’t want to live with our parents! 

Once she is back, she never has to go anywhere for any extended period of time, I CAN’T WAIT! I’m certain that my happiness is in direct relation to the physical proximity of my sweetheart, the smaller the distance, the happier of a camper I am! 

More updates to come as we get closer to the wedding, to say that we are excited is well, a gross understatement! 

 

Saturdays Could Be Sooo Productive

My list of things I should do today:

1. Write another blog post

2. Workout so I’m not fat for Courtney come wedding time

3. Rework my portion of our final research report into the correct format…or rather think about doing it

4. Go to the fridge in the hopes of finding something different to snack on than the last time I checked(about 20 minutes ago)

5. “Pine” and miss Courtney. It should be noted that this particular item isn’t in any particular order, it’s just throughout and in-between all the others.

6. Have second thoughts about creating a list. I feel obligated to make at least 10 items to make my day look somewhat productive

7. Go for a motorcycle ride as a reward for finishing my research project

8. Realize I need to actually finish the project and that I got ahead of myself

9. Finish the project!

10. The prize for completing the list? Getting to Skype my gorgeous fiancé!

 

What I’ve learned from doing this list for my Saturday is that I could probably reduce both the number of items and the length of time it takes to do most of them if Courtney was here. There’s something very special about having my significant other around. The short time we actually get to be together, which is on our weekend or week long marathon dates, we get so much done! 

A common topic that comes through our messages throughout each Saturday is how much we would love to even just do errands with each other. We’ve had a couple of chances to do some grocery shopping, getting wedding stuff ready, and it almost, almost feels like we are really playing house like grown-ups! Every Saturday I’ve been able to spend with her is like a window into the future of what it might be like to be married. Neither of us has been married before(figured that was a given, but these days you never know!), so the chance to do all these little things together is something I miss when she is away.

I’ve never counted down to something so eagerly in my life. The weekends we are apart are disappearing, and even though they feel like molasses passing through a tightly woven strainer, I feel as though the time will pass faster as we get closer. Then my Saturday to-do list probably won’t get any shorter, or it will be replaced all together by a “honey-do” list, which right now sounds awesome! You can definitely tell I’m still freshly and hopelessly in love when a honey-do list sounds like fun, talk to my dad about his list, it has no ending and doesn’t seem to be quite as exciting for him. I’ll never get bored of mine!   Words of a naive husband to be perhaps? Nope, that’s ridiculous! I’ll love doing things for her for the rest of forever!

The Last Time

Long distance has been a rather unpleasant friend when it has come to Court and I. It’s that friend that you really aren’t friends with, more of an acquaintance that you met at a party, exchanged a few words with, and had a distinct impression in the first 30 seconds you didn’t like them. Long Distance doesn’t really give you any particular reason not to like them, just their presence kinda weirds you out, and they try and jump in every time you try to gather the courage to talk to that really cute girl!

Hopefully you’re attention is hooked enough for me to drop the analogy, I have a tendency to get lost in my own metaphors, so I know the you all won’t stand a chance if I can’t follow them! Today was the last time my not so dear friend long distance got in the way of a big event in our lives, so I count that as a good day!

The big event was Court was able to walk for her graduation to become a teacher! The cap and gown, the speeches, the whole nine yards! If it hadn’t been my last week of classes before exams, as well as a very busy work week, I would have made the trek along with her family, but never again. Our final thoughts we messaged each other as she was getting ready to walk across the stage were that this is the last big event that we have to be apart for. Unless one of us wins the lottery in the next 21 days, or I become President of a foreign country by accident, every big accomplishment we get to share together, in person!

Now she didn’t actually receive the full on certificate, apparently they don’t get the official paperwork until grades are posted, wouldn’t want a runaway bride before she’s finished the next three weeks of teaching (there’s a very real possibility of that, we’ve talked about it multiple times!). From the pictures that she sent me and talking to her before everything got rolling she looked and sounded very happy to finally be graduating, taking it all in graceful stride as she does with everything. 

What made the day even better for her was having her entire family together, being reunited with her brother who just returned home serving as a missionary for 2 years, the timing of which had kept them apart for over 3 years, a happy reunion indeed! I know family is important to both of us, and any time where we are all together as us kids get older is always a good thing.

So, that awkward friend that isn’t really a friend won’t be able to jump in and stop me from talking to this cute girl once and for all, I’m really hoping for a date. You never know, she could be the one I will marry, crazy thought right? I can’t wait for the days that we get to spend together, where we get to share all the big, and the small things, every single day.

She Even Helps With School!

I’m in the final week of regular classes, papers are due, group assignments are frantically being thrown together, and the threat of exam stress is looming, and I’m really not that worried. Maybe I should be, and probably will be when each test gets closer, but for now I’m just enjoying being engaged, with my biggest worry being how hard it is to be away from my fiancé. When she did come and visit, although we did distract each other in our own little gushy love world, I actually accomplished a lot!

She had her final report project to do as well, albeit with a little more riding on it, it needed to be prefect just to satisfy her, and to make sure she graduates! I’m happy to report that she passed with flying colours on her work sample, she even let me help her by sifting through the many tests and assignments that her students did over the unit that she taught. Boy was that a lot of work, and I didn’t even get involved until the very end, I have a new found appreciation for teachers and the work they do now that I’m going to marry one!

I had an accounting mid term that week that I HAD to do well on, as the first one was a bit of a surprise. Seen as I am in the business program, I really should be more comfortable with accounting, but thus far it has been one of my most stressful classes. I have nothing against the professor, which can be an easy path of blame when college students aren’t quite catching the course material, it’s just tricky to get the format down when there’s no one holding your hand.

Being that Courtney has been a student in post secondary education for 7 years, one of the many things she is amazing at is knowing how to buckle down and study! We spent the day prior to my exam working on our perspective projects, going for about 40 minutes at a time before taking some kind of break. It worked wonderfully, and I couldn’t be happier studying with my beautiful future wife beside me! It was a fun flash into the future imagining that this same situation could be happening when we are finally married. Her stress ball of a husband will be panic studying, and she will keep me calm and provide the best of study breaks, snuggles!

The final result? Class average was 59%, and I nailed a respectful 82%. I couldn’t have done it without my gorgeous study buddy, she can help me with school any time!

Eloping, Still Joking..Right?

I’m on a post a day until Sunday to make the final blog post requirement for this assignment, so you all will be subjected to whatever random loosely related topics I can come up with until then! This one I owe to my fiancé though, my creative juices were running dry for the evening after a long day at work, and hey, it’s my blog, so why not! We’ve talked about it enough, so why not mention eloping here!

We haven’t been able to track down the very first time we joked about eloping, although we know it certainly was very early in our relationship. I can’t quite place if it was joked about in person or over a text message, the latter being the a pretty likely place if any as that was an easy form of communication between countries. Court sifted through a good number of our messages to try and find where it all started(there’s a lot to go through), she found some good stuff we could think back on and laugh about in the process.

Looking back that far it feels like it was so long ago, because we hardly knew each other at the time. Now I feel like there hasn’t been a time where I haven’t known Courtney, and I can’t imagine any version of my life where she isn’t woven through every fibre. It probably feels like such a far away place because we have gone leaps and bounds as far as relationships go, you know, getting engaged to be married and all. In most cultures, that’s what the call a “big deal”.

The jokes about eloping really started the idea roaming around in my head. At first I think it was an innocent joke, but with a closer look, I’m starting to think it was my subconscious doing some probing before I even knew that that was what I wanted! The frequency of the joke started to increase as time went on, even throwing it at both sets of parents to try and get a rise out of them, and maybe even preparing them for when we got really serious and talked about getting married.

With the introduction of engagement and wedding planning, eloping has seemed like a very real possibility! Just when we think we can’t do it, (not just the planning part) when we can’t stand to be apart any longer, eloping seems like a very rational idea. I told Courtney tonight that with just being paid today, I thought I could get us each a one way ticket to Thailand for our elopement, and we would be stuck there until I could scrounge up enough money to make our way back! That would allow enough time to pass for our families to cool off a bit, hah!

We’ve done the whole 8 months of our relationship long distance in one form or another, so to quit now would be pretty impressive. We won’t do that though, we are going to stick it out, we can definitely make it to our special day. All the planning and waiting will be well worth the wait, but that certainly won’t stop us from joking about eloping just like we did about getting married, they just go hand in hand. Being that this is a wedding planning blog, it would be an interesting turn of events if we really did elope, but don’t worry, we won’t do it! (at least today…)

Not Quite Productive Citizens

I had the distinct thought today that Courtney and I really need to get married so we can contribute to society and leave our all consuming bubble of love and longing. It is so hard to be away from her when I just love her more and more every day! I have some advice to any who are considering long distance engagements, just elope, it will be less difficult!

Probably what stemmed this intense sense of longing as I woke up this morning was having another “man night” with a couple of friends, which cut my nightly chat with my sweetheart short. Instead, we talked about trucks, engine sizes, gas prices, lift kits and mudding tires, and played some shoot ’em up bang bang video games, all very manly you see. I really can’t ever turn down a good guys night in, but nothing compares to being with my Courtney!

Yesterday just seemed to be pretty hectic between work, school, and other responsibilities, which really I can’t complain about, being busy is good for a love sick Tanner! However, I’m so love sick that all throughout those activities there’s this pervasive thought that doesn’t leave me, I love and miss Courtney. Contrast that feeling to how much I felt we both accomplished when she was actually here in person this past week, I know for a fact that we are both much more productive when we are together!

To conclude my thoughts, I have a proposal for the universe. Time can speed up to the part where I get to be with my sweetheart, even just to when she is up here and we can do all the last minute wedding planning stuff. There’s something about being in the same country as her that just sets my heart at ease, knowing that I can get to her whenever she needs me, and whenever I need her. Once time accommodates the desires of our hearts though, it can slow right down and take all the time it needs.

Day Dates…The Express Lane to the Friend Zone!

IMG_9750If any of you have seen the movie “Just Friends” you’ll understand the inspiration for the title of this post. It’s one of my favourite movies, not just because I felt I was a consistent resident of the “friend zone”, but just because I think it’s funny! Having Courtney back for a visit has been AMAZING, each moment we get to spend together is just a blissful euphoria where all the worlds problems have no hold on us. It’s nice to actually date your fiancé a little bit once in a while as well. Our day date of choice yesterday, slack lining!

I have a new perspective on day dates since finding my soulmate, they really are the express lane to the friend zone, and from what I understand from all the sage advice I’ve received from older successful married couples, that’s exactly what you want.  I don’t know if it’s the fresh air, the opportunity to do active things together, but something about day dates really brings you closer together and somehow it’s a little different from an evening date.

Amidst the duties of visualizing the yard for the reception and asking for assistance at Staples to print inserts for invitations(which was fairly useless), we needed a break from planning, and needed a date! Courtney looked over at me and expressed that we needed to go and do something fun, of course I was all for an interlude from the world of wedding planning.

We had gone slack lining the first weekend we had met, and once when we first started dating, so this was a fun little flashback date! We went to a local park, found a spot that didn’t have too much in the way of foot traffic, and strung up a couple trees to have some fun.  Courtney keeps saying that she isn’t any good but she really does have a knack for it! She made it a whole four steps, with some pretty long pauses balancing in between. Anyone who has slack lined some knows those first three or four steps mean you pretty much have it, it’s just a mental game after that! It was a bit chilly, but we still had fun and boy is she cute when she’s determined to get something down! I’m betting she will be a pro in no time at all!

I really shouldn’t be amazed at how much more I love her after spending time with her, but just when I think I can’t love her more, it happens again! It was a fun little day date that just added to the already high flying balloon in my chest that accompanies all these loving feelings and such, this has been a wonderful visit so far and I can’t wait until it’s permanent! If you are looking for a fun way to get to know a potential soul mate, go on a day date, you may end up in the friend zone, and that’s a good thing!