First Non-Mandatory Post, Feels Good!

Ahhh it feels good knowing I can do this just because I want to. One of the reasons I’m writing this is to distract myself from the task at hand, studying! Really who likes studying? Maybe I would if it was of my own free will right? That won’t happen until I’m out of school though. Oh yea, and I really really miss Courtney! We are getting closer to being together, and it feels like forever until next Saturday when she comes home to me without having to leave again, so close!

I have just one more final exam on Monday, the last possible exam day, it’s accounting, and it’s at 7pm. Definitely my first pick of exam times. Not. I’ve made it through all the others without too much difficulty, although I wouldn’t say the same in the few panicked hours before each of the exams. I really felt good about the first one though, we were allowed a cheat sheet.

The whole cheat sheet idea was great for relieving anxiety before a test, it actually stopped me from having too many nervous trips to the bathroom for number-two false alarms. Probably too much information, but I’m sure I’m not the only one that gets super nervous and thinks that churning feeling in your stomach is something else. I felt very confident right up until the moment I got out of my truck at the university and reached into my pocket to feel for that stress reducing piece of paper. It must have fallen out! 

This inspired me, if I ever became a teacher, to try something to help students with stress during exams and tests. Let them know beforehand that they can make a cheat sheet, so they don’t feel like they need to hide under a rock and die a little inside until they get that test in front of them, and then just collect it before it starts! It’s pretty consistent that you really don’t need to remember much from what you put on the sheet, just the act of doing so with very careful, and very small writing, seems to sink most of it into your brain. Now this trick would only work once, and your students would never trust you again, but it might be a fun experiment! 

I actually felt really good about that particular test, so maybe there’s something to it! Maybe I should just leave the teaching skills to my future wife, who you know, went to school to learn how to do it right!

Courtney is basically done with all her school now, she is just counting the seconds until this next week is over. She has already walked for graduation, had all her final observations, and just needs to come home to me now! We will be busy right out of the gate basement suite and apartment hunting, we don’t want to live with our parents! 

Once she is back, she never has to go anywhere for any extended period of time, I CAN’T WAIT! I’m certain that my happiness is in direct relation to the physical proximity of my sweetheart, the smaller the distance, the happier of a camper I am! 

More updates to come as we get closer to the wedding, to say that we are excited is well, a gross understatement! 



Saturdays Could Be Sooo Productive

My list of things I should do today:

1. Write another blog post

2. Workout so I’m not fat for Courtney come wedding time

3. Rework my portion of our final research report into the correct format…or rather think about doing it

4. Go to the fridge in the hopes of finding something different to snack on than the last time I checked(about 20 minutes ago)

5. “Pine” and miss Courtney. It should be noted that this particular item isn’t in any particular order, it’s just throughout and in-between all the others.

6. Have second thoughts about creating a list. I feel obligated to make at least 10 items to make my day look somewhat productive

7. Go for a motorcycle ride as a reward for finishing my research project

8. Realize I need to actually finish the project and that I got ahead of myself

9. Finish the project!

10. The prize for completing the list? Getting to Skype my gorgeous fiancé!


What I’ve learned from doing this list for my Saturday is that I could probably reduce both the number of items and the length of time it takes to do most of them if Courtney was here. There’s something very special about having my significant other around. The short time we actually get to be together, which is on our weekend or week long marathon dates, we get so much done! 

A common topic that comes through our messages throughout each Saturday is how much we would love to even just do errands with each other. We’ve had a couple of chances to do some grocery shopping, getting wedding stuff ready, and it almost, almost feels like we are really playing house like grown-ups! Every Saturday I’ve been able to spend with her is like a window into the future of what it might be like to be married. Neither of us has been married before(figured that was a given, but these days you never know!), so the chance to do all these little things together is something I miss when she is away.

I’ve never counted down to something so eagerly in my life. The weekends we are apart are disappearing, and even though they feel like molasses passing through a tightly woven strainer, I feel as though the time will pass faster as we get closer. Then my Saturday to-do list probably won’t get any shorter, or it will be replaced all together by a “honey-do” list, which right now sounds awesome! You can definitely tell I’m still freshly and hopelessly in love when a honey-do list sounds like fun, talk to my dad about his list, it has no ending and doesn’t seem to be quite as exciting for him. I’ll never get bored of mine!   Words of a naive husband to be perhaps? Nope, that’s ridiculous! I’ll love doing things for her for the rest of forever!

She Even Helps With School!

I’m in the final week of regular classes, papers are due, group assignments are frantically being thrown together, and the threat of exam stress is looming, and I’m really not that worried. Maybe I should be, and probably will be when each test gets closer, but for now I’m just enjoying being engaged, with my biggest worry being how hard it is to be away from my fiancé. When she did come and visit, although we did distract each other in our own little gushy love world, I actually accomplished a lot!

She had her final report project to do as well, albeit with a little more riding on it, it needed to be prefect just to satisfy her, and to make sure she graduates! I’m happy to report that she passed with flying colours on her work sample, she even let me help her by sifting through the many tests and assignments that her students did over the unit that she taught. Boy was that a lot of work, and I didn’t even get involved until the very end, I have a new found appreciation for teachers and the work they do now that I’m going to marry one!

I had an accounting mid term that week that I HAD to do well on, as the first one was a bit of a surprise. Seen as I am in the business program, I really should be more comfortable with accounting, but thus far it has been one of my most stressful classes. I have nothing against the professor, which can be an easy path of blame when college students aren’t quite catching the course material, it’s just tricky to get the format down when there’s no one holding your hand.

Being that Courtney has been a student in post secondary education for 7 years, one of the many things she is amazing at is knowing how to buckle down and study! We spent the day prior to my exam working on our perspective projects, going for about 40 minutes at a time before taking some kind of break. It worked wonderfully, and I couldn’t be happier studying with my beautiful future wife beside me! It was a fun flash into the future imagining that this same situation could be happening when we are finally married. Her stress ball of a husband will be panic studying, and she will keep me calm and provide the best of study breaks, snuggles!

The final result? Class average was 59%, and I nailed a respectful 82%. I couldn’t have done it without my gorgeous study buddy, she can help me with school any time!

Eloping, Still Joking..Right?

I’m on a post a day until Sunday to make the final blog post requirement for this assignment, so you all will be subjected to whatever random loosely related topics I can come up with until then! This one I owe to my fiancé though, my creative juices were running dry for the evening after a long day at work, and hey, it’s my blog, so why not! We’ve talked about it enough, so why not mention eloping here!

We haven’t been able to track down the very first time we joked about eloping, although we know it certainly was very early in our relationship. I can’t quite place if it was joked about in person or over a text message, the latter being the a pretty likely place if any as that was an easy form of communication between countries. Court sifted through a good number of our messages to try and find where it all started(there’s a lot to go through), she found some good stuff we could think back on and laugh about in the process.

Looking back that far it feels like it was so long ago, because we hardly knew each other at the time. Now I feel like there hasn’t been a time where I haven’t known Courtney, and I can’t imagine any version of my life where she isn’t woven through every fibre. It probably feels like such a far away place because we have gone leaps and bounds as far as relationships go, you know, getting engaged to be married and all. In most cultures, that’s what the call a “big deal”.

The jokes about eloping really started the idea roaming around in my head. At first I think it was an innocent joke, but with a closer look, I’m starting to think it was my subconscious doing some probing before I even knew that that was what I wanted! The frequency of the joke started to increase as time went on, even throwing it at both sets of parents to try and get a rise out of them, and maybe even preparing them for when we got really serious and talked about getting married.

With the introduction of engagement and wedding planning, eloping has seemed like a very real possibility! Just when we think we can’t do it, (not just the planning part) when we can’t stand to be apart any longer, eloping seems like a very rational idea. I told Courtney tonight that with just being paid today, I thought I could get us each a one way ticket to Thailand for our elopement, and we would be stuck there until I could scrounge up enough money to make our way back! That would allow enough time to pass for our families to cool off a bit, hah!

We’ve done the whole 8 months of our relationship long distance in one form or another, so to quit now would be pretty impressive. We won’t do that though, we are going to stick it out, we can definitely make it to our special day. All the planning and waiting will be well worth the wait, but that certainly won’t stop us from joking about eloping just like we did about getting married, they just go hand in hand. Being that this is a wedding planning blog, it would be an interesting turn of events if we really did elope, but don’t worry, we won’t do it! (at least today…)

An Interesting Exercise

The same class and reason I started this blog put me through my literary paces again this past week, and I learned a thing or two, fancy that! Of course I had to involve the recent events that consume all of my idle and active thoughts in class, so my fiancé came to mind when my “Coach” (our professor encourages us to call him that) told us at the beginning of class to just start writing about something positive.

The initial instructions he gave us were fairly vague, as he does most times, surely on purpose as to not snuff out our creativity. Coach informed us that we were to be writing a letter, like a real letter you would put in the actual mail box, to a dear friend to share this positive thing with. This wasn’t to be graded, but that was all the information he gave us, and so I started to write about how I had met this wonderful girl and how I became engaged to her.

My thoughts weren’t the most organized as I put them down, trying to imagine which dear friend I would share the news with that somehow had been trapped under a rock that didn’t have access to Facebook. I was a cut a bit short so our professor could move on to the next part of the exercise, so I wrapped my thoughts up mostly skipping the gushy romance part, assuming my technologically orphaned and fictional friend was a male I’m guessing.

The next task was to write on the exact same topic, but to someone who was at least a generation older and as close as family, like a grandparent. I chose my grandmother to write to, and immediately I noticed my writing style changed. Knowing that she is very proper with her grammar and spelling, my “letter” magically had much more structure and I found myself using some proper sentences! I do think this was also aided by it being the second time I could write about this event, but I did leave out certain details that I assumed my grandma already knew as the family grape vine moves juicy information along rather quickly. I also found myself drawing parallels to how I wanted to follow her and my grandpa’s example in seeing how much they cared for one another, and wanting that for Courtney and I.

The final part of the exercise was to again write on the same thing, but to a perspective boss. Coach explained that this wasn’t an unheard of task for a job application, as he had knowledge of an employer that would have hopeful employees write on the spot on various topics to determine if they would be hired, even if the job didn’t require those exact skills. I kept this letter less sappy,(as much as is possible when talking about engagement to my soulmate) and more professional. I also used more professional language, probably trying to impress my would-be boss with all the skills I acquired from my professional writing class! I still managed to end on a romantic note, couldn’t help myself there!

All-in-all it was a neat way to see how I would have explained that event to different people, especially in how it affected my writing style. I ended up sharing it with Courtney, she seemed to enjoy it, and it made me glad that I was given the opportunity to brag about my beautiful fiancé in class! So, if you are looking for a fun way to write about a positive event, even romantic one, it’s almost like surprising yourself in seeing how you communicate with different people. I love nothing more than showing off my Courtney in any medium, she’s just too perfect to keep all to myself!

Not Quite Productive Citizens

I had the distinct thought today that Courtney and I really need to get married so we can contribute to society and leave our all consuming bubble of love and longing. It is so hard to be away from her when I just love her more and more every day! I have some advice to any who are considering long distance engagements, just elope, it will be less difficult!

Probably what stemmed this intense sense of longing as I woke up this morning was having another “man night” with a couple of friends, which cut my nightly chat with my sweetheart short. Instead, we talked about trucks, engine sizes, gas prices, lift kits and mudding tires, and played some shoot ’em up bang bang video games, all very manly you see. I really can’t ever turn down a good guys night in, but nothing compares to being with my Courtney!

Yesterday just seemed to be pretty hectic between work, school, and other responsibilities, which really I can’t complain about, being busy is good for a love sick Tanner! However, I’m so love sick that all throughout those activities there’s this pervasive thought that doesn’t leave me, I love and miss Courtney. Contrast that feeling to how much I felt we both accomplished when she was actually here in person this past week, I know for a fact that we are both much more productive when we are together!

To conclude my thoughts, I have a proposal for the universe. Time can speed up to the part where I get to be with my sweetheart, even just to when she is up here and we can do all the last minute wedding planning stuff. There’s something about being in the same country as her that just sets my heart at ease, knowing that I can get to her whenever she needs me, and whenever I need her. Once time accommodates the desires of our hearts though, it can slow right down and take all the time it needs.

Suits and Such

So my sweet Courtney had to leave me again, back to go finish off the last stint of her practicum for teaching and receive her degree. I have to say, this week and a bit worth of a visit was great! Probably a good sign when we just love spending time with each other, even if it seems like we can’t be pried apart for much more than sleep and bathroom breaks. We got a few more wedding planning things done, so an update is in order.

We further discussed some colour schemes as far as my suit and the get-ups of the groomsmen.  This required some sneaky research to be done in stores that have suits. Usually I’m scared of salespeople…well actually that didn’t change after this outing, as we had to go into a little suit shop with no where to hide. When going through a larger department store with no one lurking there that wants to “help”, it’s easier to blend in and avoid discovery. They just stress me out! I don’t know what it is exactly, but I just don’t like saying no to people, and I don’t like saying yes when I have no intention of letting them convince me to buy something, so it just feels all wrong! It’s a good thing Courtney knows how to shop!

We were going to go with a grey of some kind to match the wedding colours, but on comparing some samples our wonderful seamstress provided(my mom!) from the bridesmaid dresses, a brown may actually work better. I’m secretly hoping this is the final decision so I get to go with the suit I already have, but suit shopping(when I actually intend on buying one) is actually probably the only kind of clothes shopping I actually enjoy. If you go to a good store, they make you feel all special, brushing your shoulders and making sure you look good and such. 

Everything seems like it is coming together, and the wedding doesn’t feel like it’s so far away anymore, which I am super grateful for! I have this sneaky feeling that as the time draws closer, the pressure will be on and then we will see how all the pieces come together into the grande finale. The climax of which will be the actual wedding, and I cannot wait to be with my sweetie officially!